Everything that happens while you are away are things that you should be glad you are away from. There are too many experiences in life and its better to not be present in all of those experiences. Not because I have anything against life but I sharply feel that humans are not capable of handling that. More importantly, I feel that in life you have to chose a few things that you become excellent at. Jack of all trades is good to be but unless you are master of at least one, there will always be a gaping hole in satisfaction level.
I have been feeling this for long now. Not exactly knowing how to put in words I did not understand it as well as I would have wanted. Maybe I am still learning it and need more time to grasp what exactly is going on but the pieces seems to be coming into place.
Just watched a movie with these lines- “Take up a cause. Fall in Love. Write a book.”
I believe I am not alone in this world who thinks there is more to life that whatever I am doing right now. I have found a cause right now, something that supposedly, will make me happy. Whenever that will happen is next that I will fall in love. At least that is what I think. Its either that or I am lying right now to myself and ignoring what I feel. And the third is something that should have already been finished but is still in the cards. Thankfully, the energy is coming back to me for doing that.
The only thing that is left is to go back and pick up where I left. Something that I have always found difficult.
Anyways, before the movie quote, as I was saying, I am still trying to understand everything but somehow I feel I am closer to Enlightenment (Buddha kind) than I have ever been. But the path is a long one and the steps that I am taking are baby steps at best. I do not think I can run to the destination and I definitely do not think that impatience is going to be a virtue here.
So, let the baby steps continue!